I'm Back!!

Well I'm finally back. Sorry it's been so long, but we have been just a little busy :) I promise to try to keep this more updated going forward.

Will will be 4 weeks old this Tuesday! I can't believe it! I'm makes me want to cry. Just 4 short weeks ago our world was turned upside down :) I would not go back for any amount of money in the world. I LOVE my life now and being a mommy. Will is the most amazing baby. The amount of love I have for him is indescribable- "my cup overfloweth." Just thinking about it makes me burst into tears. He is my everything- he's everything I think about and dream about. Everything I do, feel, plan for, and hope for is for him. It's amazing.

So much has happened in the past four weeks. There is no way to rehash all of it, so I'll just give a quick update. Will is a great sleeper. At first this was a problem sort of because I would have to fight to wake him up to nurse. He weighed 8 lb 5 ozs at birth and dropped to 7 lb 10 oz by the time we left the hospital. This is more weight loss than they wanted him to have so they stressed making sure he ate every 3 hours at the latest (I am nursing- or trying to). The first week of nursing was HORRIBLE. I would try to wake him up, try to nurse for about an hour, give him a bottle of expressed milk, burp, change him, get him back to sleep, pump, wash pump stuff, get ready for the next feeding, and then have 20- 30 minutes to sleep before it was time to start all over again. I was miserable and so was he. I started giving him bottles at night just so we could both get more sleep and I was able to monitor how much milk he was getting (before he just slept the whole time and I couldn't figure it out). This went well. Then we started getting out and running around a little ( I needed out of the house) and having visitors- so I would give him bottles during the day too. After a little bit- we fell into the schedule of bottles with me pumping. I would nurse at least 2 times a day to keep him in the habit. This is still where we are; however, I do nurse more often now. He stays awake more and will take to it better.

So after about 2.5 weeks he got feeding a little under control and then I get mastitis. I ran a fever of around 102 for about 3 days and felt like I had been run over by a truck. It was horrible, but with rest and antibiotics I got over it. I am still taking antiobiotics, but feel TONS better.

I am hoping for a good week this week. I'm hoping that nothing too dramatic will happen and we can get a lot of rest and I can get the house cleaned up. I have picked up, but it feels so dirty! I've got to get on the floors, etc :)

Brian has been fabulous. He is a great daddy. He changes him, feeds him, cuddles with him and loves on him. Today I helped throw a baby shower for a friend. Brian kept Will and when I came home I saw that the baby bjorn was out. Brian had put Will in it while he cooked :) He said Will liked it- that he just feel asleep :)

Will has grown like a weed. He still has a head full of hair. He sleeps all the time, but is now staying awake more and more. I love it! His smiles and coos melt my heart (I know they are just gas but I don't care...it shows me what is to come). He is a great baby and I can't wait for all the experiences to come; however, talking about him growing up any more makes me want to cry. Time is already going by too fast.

Well- I'm going to go pick up my baby and love on him now :) I'll update more later! Love to all! Thanks for all the thoughts, well wishes, and prayers. Keep them coming. I need them for sure- as I have no clue what I'm doing. I just pray that what I am doing is okay and that Will stays safe, healthy, and happy.